A Funny Story : Tribhang of Yajnaseni

- Compilation: Pratibha Thakkar

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The cold wind of winter is blowing, there is a hint of coldness in the atmosphere, the fallen leaves of the trees are scattered, a beautiful dark but charming is standing in this dense forest area, its dark color may have been the effect of the sun of time or the impact of time. Do you know the effect? ​​Otherwise, by birth, she belonged to Gaur Varni Swami. Although very silent, as if his entire being is fighting a war inside. The winds coming from the east are playing with her braids like Kusumalta, but there is no trace of the Lord of that Gaur Varna is lost in the world of thoughts. She had reached nowhere by swimming with the flow of time. Suddenly, footsteps are heard behind him. But who knows where he laughs at the thought?! He took note of this.

'Sakhi!'

'Madhava?'.

'Yes friend'.

'When did you come Madhav?, I don't know!'. A sea churning in and out as if ready to break through all the shore barriers with Madhav's gentle voice. As Madhav Yajnaseni's beloved friend, could understand each other's feelings, could understand pain, all of Madhav Sakhi's silence seemed to speak of pain.

With a soft smile, Madhav looks at his dear friend, and thinks to himself, 'How much has this time and this entire society become for Yajnas? '. Seeing Madhav watching her face, Yajnaseni's distance widens, she makes a last but futile attempt to hide her tears by looking in the other direction.

'Sakhi! Will you hide your tears from me now?

'What can I say Madhav? My mind is restless today'.

'If a friend expresses your inner hurt feelings, it is very harmful for you. I am your friend, right? What kind of shyness from me? .'

'If I want something, Madhav, will you give it to me?'

What do you want to say? '.

'Death according to my will is also mine

Before all the five husbands.'

What does Sakhi want? I have ! ,

Are you even aware?

Yes Madhav I know what I want, I don't want any immortality right?, that you have to think seriously, there are three important dimensions of my life, the last dimension of the three important curves, the ultimate truth of this tripartite life I want as per my wish. Madhav, the door of my life has always been in the hands of others, but not now. Every day I break into small pieces and stand up again, Madhav, my existence has never been complete. But in my whole life journey I have never been perfect!, In my whole existence I don't know who I am!, I was also born for a great historical event in which I had no will, that was the first break of my life, the first weave of my life. A dimension where my life goals were decided without even asking me before I was born. I was held responsible for the loss of life and destruction on the battlefield of Puru Kurukshetra, for the destruction of an entire dynasty, including my own Madhava. I was presented as the cause of the all-important war of religious establishment, but was Madhava my desire? Why such a big burden on me? When I was born I had dreams like any other ordinary girl, I too had a crush on Karna, I too wanted to be loved by someone like an ordinary girl, but like an object I was sold between five husbands and broken. My love, my feelings, my fallibility, my responsibility, my loyalty and my entire being, even my body and my soul, were cut into five equal pieces.

Like one of the toys to explain to five small children, my view of time was divided into five equal parts. This was another break in my life, another curve, another dimension. In this second breach my whole existence was scattered, never being asked what I wanted, until I was staked like an inanimate thing in a packed assembly and none other than my own husband, my Who gave him the right to put me on the stake without knowing my will, Madhav!?. I have wound myself with great difficulty, Madhav!, Now I have no courage left to break again, no, this is not a momentary impulse! No excess of anger, I have never blown the horn of revenge, Madhav.

What has happened in the yajnavedi of this Kurukshetra? This Yajna was never meant for him, all have become due to their karmas. It is as if I am stuck with this whole incident, Madhav, this entire Bharatvarsha for centuries has to consider me as the reason for the massacre of this Kurukshetra. And finally after all this what did I get Madhav? Many marks were put on my character, I was brought to market, I was dragged in the assembly, not a single dignitary sitting there condemned this vile act, even my five husbands could not stop the hands of misrule, they had the right to impale me. Who gave Madhav? Even so, there is nothing left in me to break. The decisions of two important parts of my life, two curves, were taken without asking me and I remained a passive spectator. But not now, Madhav, I will decide the third curve of my life, the third part, the third dimension of this triangle, Madhav. Now I will be a rebel Madhav!, My whole life decisions have been decided by others, but I will decide my death, promise me Madhav I really want that leave. My death should happen according to my wish and my will. Even if for centuries this whole Bharatvarsh rains down on me, even if it is said that I have committed the most sins so that I have died the worst in the Himalayas. From today till my death I have the right to every moment, every moment, till this moment I am not Panchali, I belong only and only to Yajna, I don't want anything from this building, this palace, servants, maids, ornaments. Now I want to live on my own terms Madhava, I want to be responsible for the sins of my karma myself, promise me Madhava!. Now I am a beggar of Tathaisthu, Sakha.'

'In this last dimension of Sakhi Yajna, in the final break, he has asked for your death, he has asked for the very first leave. My Tathastu is contained in Your will, for Sakhi Your entire existence has spoken this desire before this entire universe, this entire universe, this entire Bharatvarsha, and many centuries testify to this, that truly said, truly. Avamastu lived, sought, given is as influential and powerful as God's Tathagata. Even this Narayan is bowed down to your will power. Indeed, Sakhi, even though you cannot decide the two dimensions of your life, the two triangles, but you have decided the ultimate and important triangle of your life, you yourself have to decide why you will live that dimension. Today, for me, this Vasudeva. You are truly lucky for Krishna. Even Krishna did not get this good fortune.

Author : Hina Chavda, (Botad)